Expression of love

After a small argument the other day between me and my mom, as I settled down with a cup of tea, I heard my mom mumbling "I don't think you appreciate what I do...I have this constant feeling".

Needless to say, I was hurt. Not because she said this. Because, I got in touch with my inability to express my love the way she expects.

This made me introspect and observe within and around me.

I am able to feel the love all the time from me for me. Similarly, I am able to feel the love for me from other people. But, whenever I feel someone doesn't love me is a direct conclusion of me judging that person based on that person's actions & non-actions, words & silence.

Which compels me to ask these questions:

1) Is the love we feel for us and others equivalent to the love we express?

2) What is the "right" way of expression?

3) What is the "benchmark"?

4) While the way I may express love for each one around me would be different, would we need to carry the pressure of convincing someone of how much we love them?

5) And if we do love someone, and if we are unable to express in a way that they can feel our love, how do we go about it? What can we do about our own inabilities?

I don't think, I have answers yet.

While these are the questions I am sitting with, I can't help but wonder at this most important and yet complicated essence in all our lives.

If there is one wish I have for each of us...its the wish to have the ability to express love not just in a way we feel....but, in a way others can feel our love for them.

And probably a bigger wish is....for us to have the ability to consider all the love coming our way as just love. Irrespective of the way it is expressed.

Love in itself is supposed to be unconditional. However the irony that we experience is, we feel the love only on conditions.







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  1. UnknownMarch 18, 2018 at 4:17 AM

    This is so true. I could relate to every single point in your blog. I am sure this is a very universal experience and problems faced by all. Well written Veena.

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